You turn 30
You turn 50
More stays the same
The meaningful life eludes
but today my heart
is filled with
towards those I’ve lost
oh to have another conversation with you now
and those who have
shown love towards me
During my somewhat rough experiences that by all demographics make me seem sad sack Sally what more could happen to her just have to let that one go
The Shane the resilience no more
There are moments of clarity and doing what the Dalai Llama says. But I can’t even do yoga that well so even quieting my overly active mind is a discipline I have improved upon since my last birthday.
And I have conflicted feelings about my birth parents on this day and sadness over the ending in this place I love – but I’ve vowed not to think of those troubles today that is my present to myself celebration to come sad that I have no community of frienss in LA but it’s gorgeous today so I’m blissibg out, focusing on that.